Hef and Bunny
Easter weekend went amazing. Got ride of some old baggage and my life feels way less stressful. So at least it a positive outcome came out of everything. We had a little Easter egg hunt for my nephew which was so cute.
My car didn’t get fixed but it got appraised again, so I just have to wait for a call then I have to go back to Nashville. Luckily I don’t have to pay for all this gas going back in forth. I am for sure getting sick of driving, especially to Nashville, but at least I get to stay here this weekend and enjoy not being on the road.
This week is kappa week so my boys from that fraternity are doing a lot of cool things all week. Yesterday they had a women’s appreciation dinner, which was so cute. They escorted us in one by one and led us to a table that had the best set up. There was even a gold fish for the centerpiece. My roommate took it at the end, so now we have a fishy and his name is Hef. My roommate also got this Easter plant from here aunt and it’s so funny, we named the plant Bunny. So now we have a fish called Hef, and his plant Bunny right next to each there. I’m hoping the fish doesn’t die though,it’s really small so I have a feeling it is. This Friday they are also having a party on a boat so I already got my ticket to that, but besides that I’m going to relax this week and try to figure out this math I have.
Bits and Bops of the week.
So my week has been going well. I realized that long distance relationships don’t really work for me and finally cut ties with someone that is still very special to me. It sucks but the most hardest things to do for yourself usually are the best things. I never even really been in to the whole dating thing or having a boyfriend, it was just too much rules and once you put a title on things people end up getting really jealous and insecure so I’m trying hard to avoid that. My friends and family have been great support systems since day one, and I truly am grateful for anyone that can put up with me. I am a very indecisive person so who know what I might be thinking at the end of this week. I am actually going to Nashville to get my car fixed and be with my family for Easter, and I kind of already want to see this guy. Which is so bad ‘cause I just told him how I can’t deal with this distance thing. Oh well, I’m not a bad person I know that but I know I can be really confusing, especially when it comes to things I want. On another note though even if I don’t see him I’ll be hiding Easter eggs for my nephew to pick up on Sunday. I can’t wait, I remember the thrill I used to get, so I know exactly how he is feeling. Hopefully after this weekend I won’t need to go back to Nashville until school ends. I’m starting to get sick of that two and a half hour drive that I keep on making. It’s killing my wallet and I’m beginning to loath driving. I think if I had an automatic I wouldn’t really mind but my car is a little red racing stick-shift car.
So my week has been very interesting to say the least. My spring break trip to Florida was amazing, and then I got home. Sunday I was leaving for Knoxville, so I thought. My next door neighbor hit my car which postponed me by five hours. I wasn’t too happy since this is the second time they did it, and it was the same time last year. I’m just glad my brother wasn’t hurt because he was literally putting my suitcase in my trunk. My week got better when I got to school though; I saw my friends and they started making me laugh like always. Then I finally got what was going on in my stats class and I’m on a ball with my other classes, plus we got my biology teacher to move the test back to next week. So I am feeling very confident and happy this week even though my car got dented. It’s okay though, things could have been worse.
I’m just happy everybody is safe and healthy, now all I have to look forward to is summer. I’m glad I have a very great support system behind me who understands me the fullest and could put up with me at my worst. I was always taught that if a person couldn’t handle you at your worst they don’t deserve you at your best. This year there has been a lot of prime examples of this, not only with me but my friends surrounding me. I’ve learned what it is to be that strong friend to people when they most need it.
ugh!
Well as my brother was putting my suitcase in my car so I can head back to Knoxville my freaking neighbor hit my parked car that had the trunk open. How could you miss an apple red car with a trunk open? I’m so mad right now.
Spring Break is almost here and I am so excited. I’ve missed Florida too much and the beaches should be perfect when I go and visit. I can’t believe that school is almost over and thinking about next year is so overwhelming, but I’ve learned just to go with the flow. I’m really nervous though about this semester, math kicked but butt, but I should be getting a tutor soon because it has really been stressing me out. I’m very thankful for the friends I have in my life, like Rilwan who has been helping me since day one with my math class. That’s a true friend that in whatever hour it is he would drop what he’s doing to help a struggling friend. I really need to get my stuff together though if I want to make it. Remembering why I’m here is always a good little motivation when needed. That’s all I need in my life right now is a lot of motivation to keep going and pushing through, even though a small part of me wants to move back to Nashville. I know staying here in Knoxville is the best thing for me at this point in my life. It is scary to think that I can actually do whatever I want. I am an adult so I would have to suffer whatever I decide. Well this is just me freaking out on myself but I know everything is going to be okay, I just did to get my mind set.
So my birthday weekend was amazing! The best thing about having my birthday on a Monday is that I celebrated the weekend before in Nashville, and now this weekend in Knoxville! So my birthday lasts two weekends instead of one day. Birthdays are big to me, I turned nineteen, and I can’t believe it’s my last year as a teenager. My grandfather gave me a gold necklace that he always wears. That was very special for me, because I don’t think my grandfather has ever given single person jewelry except for my grandma. Everybody was pretty surprised but I love my grandfather and he knows me best.
One thing in my life that I should not have to worry about is boys, but lord have mercy that’s like the biggest discussion in my life. I like this guy who lives two and a half almost three hours away. I try to go and see him as much as possible when I go back to Nashville to visit my family and friends, but I feel the efforts aren’t mutual. I know it’s harder for him because of him job and stuff but still I deserve some kind of anything! Even my best friends know and see how much I like this guy, but I have the attitude there’s always going to be more fish in the sea. On a lighter note though I love that spring break is right around the corner! Naples, Marathon, and Miami better watch out for me!
This won’t ruin your blog. These people sacrifice their lives everyday for us.
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CAKE CAKE CAKE CAKE!
So the pageant is finally over. I’m so glad I did it, I met some awesome girls and I love all of them already! My birthday is this Monday March 5th and I’m so happy because I get to go home this weekend and spend it with all my Nashville people! As for all my Knoxville friends we’re having a dinner Monday night, probably at Nori’s on the strip but I have no clue yet. This weekend is just going to be about me, myself, and I. I’m not going to have to worry about anybody else and their problems, even though I don’t mind doing that, this is my birthday week, so nobody is ruining that for me.
Spring break 2012 couldn’t come fast enough either, I’m going to Naples, Key West, then Miami with my two best friends Theresa, and Kelsey and we’re meeting up with my best friends from Florida! This is the best birthday present ever. I haven’t been home in 3 years and all my Florida people are going crazy. So hopefully we would all have the time of our lives this spring break. Even if it is just chilling on the beach I’m mighty fine with that. That’s basically all I want to do when I get there is go to the beach. Naples has the best sunsets and my friend Juan wanted to take me to his favorite spot in the Keys and Miami is a must if you go to Florida. All my other friends are going to Panama City Beach, they’ll have lots of fun but since I’m from Florida there is no point in me going to PCB. I wish my whole family could come to Florida with me though, because almost all of my spring break is going to be in Florida then when I get back there’s going to be no time for me to stay in Nashville.
It’s now or Never!
This has been one of the most stressful weeks of my life. The pageant is on Saturday and all of us have been practicing super hard. I swear I have bruises all over from this dance that Destiny helped me choreograph. I just want to say I love my friends, they are so clutch. Theresa is my stage mom, and I never thought I would need somebody not only for physical help with this pageant but emotional help too. Of course I get super nervous for my talent portion and I’m so glad she is there each time to cheer me on, and help me motivate myself. Of course she was there to slap me anytime I started freaking out, but that’s what best friends are for. I just can’t wait for this pageant to be over with, I’m excited and at the same time relieved that it’s finally here. My family is coming to see me from Nashville and I can’t wait to see all of them. I at least want to place in this pageant if I don’t win, but this was a wonderful experience and I’m glad I did this alpha pageant. My alpha men have been helping the whole way through this struggle and have been taking timeout of their day to make sure everything for my portion is ready. They’ve been working just as hard to make sure we are set and I really appreciate that. Well after this week you guys would stop hearing about this pageant and start to know what really goes on in my life besides this.
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